I've Been...

I've been listening… to New Life Live. Basically, it is a call in radio show that gives callers advice on how to handle their life. I love psychology and I find it fascinating to know how the brain works, and why we do the things we do. It has stirred my interest to become a counselor. Again. I started graduate school for counseling in 2009, but then I met the man who is now my husband. I became a wife and a mommy, instead of a student. But that itch is still there.

I've been dressing… to impress. Or at least trying to. I am desperately trying to figure out how to be fashionable. My learning how to be fashionable is like a kindergartener learning how to play Clair De Lune. Not impossible, but certainly not easy, either. Factor into that that we are on a budget and I haven't bought myself new clothes in a while, and you have a kindergartener on the verge of a tantrum.

I've been drinking…lots of water. I feel like I am about to float away. Then again, I hope it allows me to nurse more than two ounces per session. (Has anyone else had this problem?)

I've been wondering…if I should go back to school (see #1). I don't know what the Lord has in store for me. I would love to go to school to learn more about counseling. I would love to be a counselor one day. But, I also love just being a stay at home mama. Oh decisions, decisions.

I've been realizing…how selfish I am. Seriously. Why is it that I do what I don't want to do? When my husband is at work, I think about how much I long to serve him and be the best wife ever. Then he comes home. All that is forgotten and all I can think about are my rights. Will I never defeat my foe of my selfishness?

 

I am dreaming…of a house in the country. It is a dream that my husband and I share. Someday, we hope to move to a place where the neighbors on two sides can't see into our dining room. I long for a place to have a garden. Greg longs for land (doesn't every good Southern boy) and the dog longs for room to play.